Goodbye Summer 2010

Please forgive me for neglecting you, blog! I'm such a terrible blogger...fail.

Recap of my summer:
-Visited Cornell with my cousin
- OC with the family
- NYC and NJ with the family

Yup, that's basically the road trips I've taken this summer. I can't believe summer has finally come to an end. It was enjoyable and relaxing while it lasted! School starts in about two weeks... >.<

Of course since summer is coming to an end, I did some back to school shopping! I didn't really buy much, but it's enough to have some nice outfits for the beginning of school hehe. In Maryland, there's a tax free event going on where clothes and shoes are tax free for an entire week! YAY FOR NO TAX <3 Sadly, it's specifically on clothes and shoes, but who cares. tax free. :B

Without further ado, there are some items that I've picked up from F21, VS, Zara, Urban Outfitters, & Hollister!



Two necklaces on the left are from F21 & bow necklace is from Urban Outfitters!! <3




I A D O R E THIS NECKLACE!!









These are those stockings with hearts on them but you can't really see them here :( F21



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CUTE dress from ZARA.



VS Laptop case :D



Ultra skinny jeans from Hollister



Washed out capris from F21-- they're SO comfortable!



Comfy high waisted skirt from VS- they're sweater material!



comfy sweater with PINK on the back :)


Overall, I really like the things that I've purchased :)
I got them ALL on sale too! Nothing was paid full price--- except the accessories of course hehe.

Keep calm & Carry on,

Michee

Current Obsession: Polka Dots!

Can't explain to you how much i luuuuurve polka dots! They're so fun and cute hehe.

Here are some polka dotted nails I've been wearing:




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All the products that I used on my nails are from Sally Hansen's Complete Salon Manicure and Insta Dri lines. I LOVE Sally Hansen's nail polishes! They are so opaque and pigmented! <3

LOVE IT!

peace&love,

Michee

Which Phone to Choose!!

I want a new smartphone but can't decide!

It's either:

Iphone 4G -- although i've already heard complaints about it!

T-mobile HTC HD2 --- this one's really nice!

Verizon Droid Incredible--- this one's very similar to the t-mobile HTC.


WHAT TO CHOOSE, WHAT TO CHOOSE!

i still got some time though hehe. So no need to rush! But knowing me, I can't wait for too long :b


luvs,
Michee

I Think About You in the Summertime!

I remember, I think it was two summers ago when that song was so popular. Wow, it's already been two years! It was a song by New Kids on the Block and it was such a popular song during the summertime, hence it being called "I Think About You in the Summertime"! haha :D

Anyway, my boyfriend and I started taking classes on tuesday and we've already skipped two classes! Yikes! :(
It's all him, I promise! haha I guess I'm a little to blame hehe. We're taking psychology and economics. I'm not looking forward to economics at all because I HATE anything that deals with economy and politics. ugh. But it's a new experience for us because we've never been in a class setting before! we've never taken classes together so it's actually fun. Only reason why I look forward to the classes.

Our typical daily schedule:
Class at 10:15-12:15
Eat the lunch that I packed for us (we're trying to save money, haha) either outside or back at his place
Nap time (result of food coma -.-)
Chill, do some homework before we go to our second class
Class at 6:30-9:15

That's about it. It sounds pretty boring, but it's actually fun 'cause I spend the entire day with someone I love :)

June is pretty busy for me. On days I don't have classes, I work and vice versa. Gotta make a lot of money this summer so I can save up (I have problems saving money...always want to spend it >.<)
I can't wait for July though! No more classes, just work! I can finally just be a bum again :D yayyyyy!

Oh, and I got a new hairstyle the other day! Wave perm :)



Waves are always a good look for the summertime!


Enjoy!
Michee :)

I'm back! Stronger than ever! hehe.

It's been such a long time since I last updated! oh gosh.
But it's all good 'cause I'm back :)

I'm in a good mood. Wanna know why? BECAUSE TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!! I'm finally finished with Freshmen year of college! And let me tell you... it ZOOOOOMED right by. No joke. I can't believe I'm a sophomore now... it's insane!
So I had my last exam today- it's was an 8 a.m. exam and we had to write two in class essays... fml. My hand was cramping by the end of the first essay! But I finished on time so everything's good :)

TIME FOR SUMMERRRRR! :D<3

And to start off my summer:
My boyfriend and I are going to AC today! I'm so excited! :DD
He's on his way to pick me up as I'm typing this hehe. Everything's good in the hood!

Anyway, I wanted to talk about something that's been in my mind lately.

So May 14th was No Make Up Day- or something of that sort. I was really inspired by all the women who either broadcasted themselves in front of the entire country or youtubed themselves with no make up on! It was so nice to see women expose themselves like that. I know it would take me a lot of guts to do that. And as I was watching this, I was telling my boyfriend about it and he brought up something that kind of took me off guard. When I told him that these women are so brave to do this in public, he replied by saying, "That just tells you how sad our world is... women have to be BRAVE to show their real selves?" I'm not gonna lie.. he made a good point there. It made me realize that it shouldn't be bravery that provokes us to show our real selves... it should just happen without thinking. We're so masked by our make up that we're so used to it, which makes our true faces become foreign or private. It kind of reminds me up Fiona from Shrek; how Fiona's beautiful body during the day is a mask that hides her hideousness at night. Now, I'm not saying that we're that extreme but the same rule applies. Shrek was only able to see her real self because she let him in and showed him her vulnerability side. No one else in the world would've known that she would drastically change from day to night. So in that sense, we have become little Fiona's where we mask our real appearance from the world during the day and then only at night do we take off our masks.
To be honest, the only reason why I put make up on is to cover my blemishes and redness. I rarely put eye make up on with the exception of mascara and eye liner. But it doesn't matter. I'm hiding my blemishes away from the world, which I should not be embarrassed of...but it's just so hard! When make up is improving every year, it's impossible to not be pressured to try all the bright sparkly colors! BUT, it should not let it become us. It should not become a mask to cover our true appearances. This is something that I have to work on myself and I do realize that things might be better once my acne goes away but I'm not gonna lie, it's gonna take a lot of time. Slowly but surely! One day you'll be seeing me walking around the streets with no foundation on! :)

Let's eliminate all the Fiona's out there in the world! Because we all know that there is not happy ending (unfortunately.. :( ) And by Fiona I mean women who mask themselves with make up that it takes bravery to leave the house without out. We shouldn't depend on make up so much... you're know you've crossed the line when someone asks you "If you were stranded on an island and could only bring ONE thing with you, what would it be?" and you answer "MAKE UP" hahahaha. you get my drift ;)

Anywho, that's all I got to say! Just me blabbing once again hehe.


MICHEE'S OUT!
<3

current obsession:
japanese products= LOVAAHHHH.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!

I LOVE YOU <3

Jealousy.

Jealousy.

I feel this emotion one too many times. When I see other girls walking around with luxurious Louis Vuitton handbags and Tiffany's jewelry. Or when I see girls engulfing pounds of food down their throat and don't gain a SINGLE pound. Or when I see girls with flawless impeccable skin without ever having to wash their face. That makes me jealous the most.

But it's not the type of angry-jealous. It makes me reevaluate my life and my possessions. It may be true that I may not have huge designer bags that cost my college tuition and perfect, smooth, clear skin...but it makes me realize that I should always be grateful for what I have. Funny how being jealous makes me realize this.

True, there are times when I feel jealous and hate these girls before even meeting them. And also true that I wish my parents were as rich as them so I too could splurge all my money to designer clothes and jewelry. But that's just me being selfish. And selfish is not good. No, not at all.

I just have to remind myself that life is unfair. Whoever said life was fair in the first place?! We need to stop believing that life is supposed to be fair... it's not.

Update!

OH GOSH, it's been a while!

School has started and I've just bee so caught up with school! :(
We had a crazy snow storm last night so everything's fluffy and white outside hehe. I even got to play in the snow last night :)

As for school and everything else in my life right now, it's been pretty chill. Not much going on right now except taking care of my skin and reading for all my classes.. I started going to the dermatologist again and hoping this second time, my face will finally stay clear! I'm really nervous but at the same time, I'm really hopeful. I just had a bad experience the first time I went so I was a bit hesitant to go.

Recently, I've also started to realize that I shouldn't be ashamed of my skin. My boyfriend reassures me every single day, telling me that I'm still beautiful and you don't know how much that affects me. It just touches my heart whenever he says those thing to me and makes me feel sooo incredibly loved. It's amazing how I got so lucky with a wonderful boyfriend! :)

And I've decided to accept my flaw. Yes, acne is my flaw but every one has some kind of flaw right? Mine just ended up being something visible, on my face >.< Well, I guess it's better than having like acne of both my chest and my back. I just have to learn to live with it and constantly be optimistic because I KNOW it WILL get better. I know it. I just need to be patient and give it time. Even now, it's getting a lot better from a month ago and I'm just so excited! I can't wait until my face is back to normal again! This time, I'm going to continue to go to the dermatologist, even when my face is cured and go on regular visits, instead of just stopping altogether! This is what makes me grow as a person, the hardships and pain; and it's my job to learn from it and grow as a person. Our hardships and our past makes us who we are :)

Alright, enough blabbing, time to eat brunch!


Current obsession: Valentine's themed nails! <3


Love,
Michee

10 POUNDS

Another new year's resolution of mine is to lose ten pounds!


Not in an unhealthy way but I'm going to try to eat well, exercise a lot, and shrink my food portions! I think this is the best way to get the best results! Of course there will be days when i will munch awaaaaaay. But I'm going to try my best to start a new healthy diet that will help me reach my goal and make me feel better about myself! :D


YAY FOR THE NEW DECADE.

Love,
Michee


Me: :DDD
Me: baby baby
Me: can i call you!!
Perry: girl why you so obsessed with me

HAHA. -.-

Patience is a virtue.

Back again :) It's been a while though hehe oops.


So school is starting in about a week! I can't believe my 5-week winter break has already come to an end. It's incredible how times flies. The first month of 2010 is coming to an end too! The memory of counting down to the new decade is still fresh in my mind.. Time sure flies.

I'm really looking forward to the spring semester though because I can finally dorm. It's going to be a new experience- living with five strangers, sharing a room with two other girls, making food for myself (instead of my mommy making it for me) and finally having MORE FREEDOM! :D

EXCITEMENT!

hehe.


Anyway, about the title of this blog. I've realized how impatient of a person i am. seriously. I am so incredibly impatient and I really need to fix that :( Recently, I've been dealing with insecurity issues because of my skin... I know that eventually it will heal and clear up but i want it now! I sound like a brat. I know it won't heal overnight. Oh wonderful if that could truly happen...but it won't and i need to realize that. I need to just accept it and move on with life. It shouldn't affect my life and how I interact with people and etc. it doesn't make up who i am...most importantly, I won't let it control my life. no wayyy!

I just have to be patient and it will heal in a couple months. sighh. but that just sounds sooo long. (ugh, here i go again!)

My loving boyfriend and my mommy have been helping me a lot of endure this little "phase" in my life right now. They're always giving me words of encouragement and telling me it'll get better. I'm so glad they are there for me. Without them, i would probably be depressed, and sitting in a fetal position, in a corner all by myself :(

I am so thankful for them. My mommy particularly has always been there for me to help me feel better. She knows how it feels like too so she can relate to me and encourage me a lot.

Perry, on the other hand, does not! Ugh, so jealous of his skin HAHA. But he's really good at cheering me up and making me feel loved. He always tells me that he'll still love me no matter what and that makes me feel sooooooo much better.

Wow, I'm making this sound like I have cancer or something worse. I guess it's not a big deal since like 8/10 people have acne but I'm just really self-conscious about it because i grew up with people hurting my feelings because of it. Ironically, I've been hurt by my family more than my friends/random strangers. So I just have insecurity issues when it comes to this topic. However, I've really opened up! I used to not talk about it to ANYONE. not even my best friends. Now, I even talk to my boyfriend about it haha. so that's a BIG step forward for me, which I'm really happy about!

I'm also really scared to live with my new roommates because I don't want them to judge me. I hope they're nice people who aren't shallow and (fill in the blank).

Anyway, I'm out! :)

Love,
Michee

Keep Holding On.

It's me again. I'm writing a lot sooner than I had predicted :)

This post is going to be about my love. My boyfriend, Perry plays poker and recently, it hasn't been going well for him since the start of 2010 :(

He's going through so much hardships right now and I really want to help... but I don't know how. I don't even know what to say to him anymore because I feel like I've said the same things repeatedly to him. I want him to be able to stay strong and be optimistic but it's so hard to be when nothing is going right. Downfall after another downfall, it's never ending and it's just getting deeper and deeper.. Right now, it might be hard to be optimistic but we have to remember to keep moving forward. It'll only hurt more if we keep dwelling on the past and I want Perry to be strong. I'll always stand by his side and pick him up whenever he falls but I also need him to know that I'm there for him. I mean, I'm sure he does but it's so hard to console him over the internet. He always plays at night so I'm back at my own home and he's at his home. I want him to believe that he can make it and get through this. Because in the end, he will. He always has. I love him so much and it hurts to always have to just sit by and watch him struggle. And I can't do anything about it. Sure I try to cheer him up and make him smile again but it's just temporary. Night after night, he deals with the same situation. And it's uncontrollable. I hate it so much. I wish I could make him be the luckiest poker player and pwn all the noobs.... but it's out of my hands :( Only if...

If I could have one wish, it would be for Perry to run better in poker and win back all the money he'd lost and MORE. Seriously, if a genie granted me a wish. right now. at this moment. that's what my wish would be.


I've decided to end this blog with some motivating lyrics by David Choi. The song is called Hold On.

"You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven't gone past at all
While gazing with teat filled eyes
You just can't help ask why?

Trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake
The world has taken its side
You just wanna run away and hide.

It' tough
There's no one to turn to
I hear screaming inside you
Feels like hell's all you've been through
Hell's all you've been through.

Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too

Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you."


I love you Perry <3

Love,
Michee

The Start of a New Decade, 2010

So as the new decade begins, I will also be starting a blog. A place where I can just pour my feelings out and say just about anything I please. This isn't exactly for anyone to see... my boyfriend doesn't even know I have this :P Maybe I'll tell him in the future, maybe I won't.. I guess it just depends :)

Anyway, time for the New Year's Resolution! I have this feeling that 2010 is going to be a good year. I don't know why, I just feel it. I feel as if bonds between friends, families, and of course Perry will become stronger and unbreakable. It's a weird feeling, I know, but I'm going to trust it. Last year, on New Year's I had a feeling also that 2009 was going to amazing, and it certainly was! So I'm going with my instincts again this time :)

Now back to the New Year's Resolution:
1. Become a stronger individual, as I start to face the real life. No more depending on parents for money, and etc.
2. Grow closer to God.
3. Be a better person, love everyone and everything, even to those I might not get a long with very well. Be nicer to family, esp. my brother (I'm so mean to him!)
4. Build a stronger relationship with Perry and love him in every way.
5. Never take things for granted!
6. Do well in school and don't just breeze through my studies. Actually work for it because I know I'm smarter than I think.
7. Take care of myself, both mentally and physically (which means work out and exercise! ugh, I'm so lazy >.< )
8. Keep writing blogs and don't get too lazy. Remember, this is for you to just let everything out... kind of like an online diary :)
9. ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD, NEVER LOOK BACK IN THE PAST. DON'T STOP MOVING
FORWARD :D

Alright, that's all for my first blog of the year, 2010!

Love,
Michee

"Love can be seen by the blind and heard by the deaf"