Another new year's resolution of mine is to lose ten pounds!
Not in an unhealthy way but I'm going to try to eat well, exercise a lot, and shrink my food portions! I think this is the best way to get the best results! Of course there will be days when i will munch awaaaaaay. But I'm going to try my best to start a new healthy diet that will help me reach my goal and make me feel better about myself! :D
YAY FOR THE NEW DECADE.
Love,
Michee
Me: :DDD
Me: baby baby
Me: can i call you!!
Perry: girl why you so obsessed with me
HAHA. -.-
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Patience is a virtue.
Back again :) It's been a while though hehe oops.
So school is starting in about a week! I can't believe my 5-week winter break has already come to an end. It's incredible how times flies. The first month of 2010 is coming to an end too! The memory of counting down to the new decade is still fresh in my mind.. Time sure flies.
I'm really looking forward to the spring semester though because I can finally dorm. It's going to be a new experience- living with five strangers, sharing a room with two other girls, making food for myself (instead of my mommy making it for me) and finally having MORE FREEDOM! :D
EXCITEMENT!
hehe.
Anyway, about the title of this blog. I've realized how impatient of a person i am. seriously. I am so incredibly impatient and I really need to fix that :( Recently, I've been dealing with insecurity issues because of my skin... I know that eventually it will heal and clear up but i want it now! I sound like a brat. I know it won't heal overnight. Oh wonderful if that could truly happen...but it won't and i need to realize that. I need to just accept it and move on with life. It shouldn't affect my life and how I interact with people and etc. it doesn't make up who i am...most importantly, I won't let it control my life. no wayyy!
I just have to be patient and it will heal in a couple months. sighh. but that just sounds sooo long. (ugh, here i go again!)
My loving boyfriend and my mommy have been helping me a lot of endure this little "phase" in my life right now. They're always giving me words of encouragement and telling me it'll get better. I'm so glad they are there for me. Without them, i would probably be depressed, and sitting in a fetal position, in a corner all by myself :(
I am so thankful for them. My mommy particularly has always been there for me to help me feel better. She knows how it feels like too so she can relate to me and encourage me a lot.
Perry, on the other hand, does not! Ugh, so jealous of his skin HAHA. But he's really good at cheering me up and making me feel loved. He always tells me that he'll still love me no matter what and that makes me feel sooooooo much better.
Wow, I'm making this sound like I have cancer or something worse. I guess it's not a big deal since like 8/10 people have acne but I'm just really self-conscious about it because i grew up with people hurting my feelings because of it. Ironically, I've been hurt by my family more than my friends/random strangers. So I just have insecurity issues when it comes to this topic. However, I've really opened up! I used to not talk about it to ANYONE. not even my best friends. Now, I even talk to my boyfriend about it haha. so that's a BIG step forward for me, which I'm really happy about!
I'm also really scared to live with my new roommates because I don't want them to judge me. I hope they're nice people who aren't shallow and (fill in the blank).
Anyway, I'm out! :)
Love,
Michee
So school is starting in about a week! I can't believe my 5-week winter break has already come to an end. It's incredible how times flies. The first month of 2010 is coming to an end too! The memory of counting down to the new decade is still fresh in my mind.. Time sure flies.
I'm really looking forward to the spring semester though because I can finally dorm. It's going to be a new experience- living with five strangers, sharing a room with two other girls, making food for myself (instead of my mommy making it for me) and finally having MORE FREEDOM! :D
EXCITEMENT!
hehe.
Anyway, about the title of this blog. I've realized how impatient of a person i am. seriously. I am so incredibly impatient and I really need to fix that :( Recently, I've been dealing with insecurity issues because of my skin... I know that eventually it will heal and clear up but i want it now! I sound like a brat. I know it won't heal overnight. Oh wonderful if that could truly happen...but it won't and i need to realize that. I need to just accept it and move on with life. It shouldn't affect my life and how I interact with people and etc. it doesn't make up who i am...most importantly, I won't let it control my life. no wayyy!
I just have to be patient and it will heal in a couple months. sighh. but that just sounds sooo long. (ugh, here i go again!)
My loving boyfriend and my mommy have been helping me a lot of endure this little "phase" in my life right now. They're always giving me words of encouragement and telling me it'll get better. I'm so glad they are there for me. Without them, i would probably be depressed, and sitting in a fetal position, in a corner all by myself :(
I am so thankful for them. My mommy particularly has always been there for me to help me feel better. She knows how it feels like too so she can relate to me and encourage me a lot.
Perry, on the other hand, does not! Ugh, so jealous of his skin HAHA. But he's really good at cheering me up and making me feel loved. He always tells me that he'll still love me no matter what and that makes me feel sooooooo much better.
Wow, I'm making this sound like I have cancer or something worse. I guess it's not a big deal since like 8/10 people have acne but I'm just really self-conscious about it because i grew up with people hurting my feelings because of it. Ironically, I've been hurt by my family more than my friends/random strangers. So I just have insecurity issues when it comes to this topic. However, I've really opened up! I used to not talk about it to ANYONE. not even my best friends. Now, I even talk to my boyfriend about it haha. so that's a BIG step forward for me, which I'm really happy about!
I'm also really scared to live with my new roommates because I don't want them to judge me. I hope they're nice people who aren't shallow and (fill in the blank).
Anyway, I'm out! :)
Love,
Michee
Monday, January 4, 2010
Keep Holding On.
It's me again. I'm writing a lot sooner than I had predicted :)
This post is going to be about my love. My boyfriend, Perry plays poker and recently, it hasn't been going well for him since the start of 2010 :(
He's going through so much hardships right now and I really want to help... but I don't know how. I don't even know what to say to him anymore because I feel like I've said the same things repeatedly to him. I want him to be able to stay strong and be optimistic but it's so hard to be when nothing is going right. Downfall after another downfall, it's never ending and it's just getting deeper and deeper.. Right now, it might be hard to be optimistic but we have to remember to keep moving forward. It'll only hurt more if we keep dwelling on the past and I want Perry to be strong. I'll always stand by his side and pick him up whenever he falls but I also need him to know that I'm there for him. I mean, I'm sure he does but it's so hard to console him over the internet. He always plays at night so I'm back at my own home and he's at his home. I want him to believe that he can make it and get through this. Because in the end, he will. He always has. I love him so much and it hurts to always have to just sit by and watch him struggle. And I can't do anything about it. Sure I try to cheer him up and make him smile again but it's just temporary. Night after night, he deals with the same situation. And it's uncontrollable. I hate it so much. I wish I could make him be the luckiest poker player and pwn all the noobs.... but it's out of my hands :( Only if...
If I could have one wish, it would be for Perry to run better in poker and win back all the money he'd lost and MORE. Seriously, if a genie granted me a wish. right now. at this moment. that's what my wish would be.
I've decided to end this blog with some motivating lyrics by David Choi. The song is called Hold On.
"You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven't gone past at all
While gazing with teat filled eyes
You just can't help ask why?
Trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake
The world has taken its side
You just wanna run away and hide.
It' tough
There's no one to turn to
I hear screaming inside you
Feels like hell's all you've been through
Hell's all you've been through.
Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too
Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you."
I love you Perry <3
Love,
Michee
This post is going to be about my love. My boyfriend, Perry plays poker and recently, it hasn't been going well for him since the start of 2010 :(
He's going through so much hardships right now and I really want to help... but I don't know how. I don't even know what to say to him anymore because I feel like I've said the same things repeatedly to him. I want him to be able to stay strong and be optimistic but it's so hard to be when nothing is going right. Downfall after another downfall, it's never ending and it's just getting deeper and deeper.. Right now, it might be hard to be optimistic but we have to remember to keep moving forward. It'll only hurt more if we keep dwelling on the past and I want Perry to be strong. I'll always stand by his side and pick him up whenever he falls but I also need him to know that I'm there for him. I mean, I'm sure he does but it's so hard to console him over the internet. He always plays at night so I'm back at my own home and he's at his home. I want him to believe that he can make it and get through this. Because in the end, he will. He always has. I love him so much and it hurts to always have to just sit by and watch him struggle. And I can't do anything about it. Sure I try to cheer him up and make him smile again but it's just temporary. Night after night, he deals with the same situation. And it's uncontrollable. I hate it so much. I wish I could make him be the luckiest poker player and pwn all the noobs.... but it's out of my hands :( Only if...
If I could have one wish, it would be for Perry to run better in poker and win back all the money he'd lost and MORE. Seriously, if a genie granted me a wish. right now. at this moment. that's what my wish would be.
I've decided to end this blog with some motivating lyrics by David Choi. The song is called Hold On.
"You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven't gone past at all
While gazing with teat filled eyes
You just can't help ask why?
Trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake
The world has taken its side
You just wanna run away and hide.
It' tough
There's no one to turn to
I hear screaming inside you
Feels like hell's all you've been through
Hell's all you've been through.
Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too
Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you."
I love you Perry <3
Love,
Michee
Sunday, January 3, 2010
The Start of a New Decade, 2010
So as the new decade begins, I will also be starting a blog. A place where I can just pour my feelings out and say just about anything I please. This isn't exactly for anyone to see... my boyfriend doesn't even know I have this :P Maybe I'll tell him in the future, maybe I won't.. I guess it just depends :)
Anyway, time for the New Year's Resolution! I have this feeling that 2010 is going to be a good year. I don't know why, I just feel it. I feel as if bonds between friends, families, and of course Perry will become stronger and unbreakable. It's a weird feeling, I know, but I'm going to trust it. Last year, on New Year's I had a feeling also that 2009 was going to amazing, and it certainly was! So I'm going with my instincts again this time :)
Now back to the New Year's Resolution:
1. Become a stronger individual, as I start to face the real life. No more depending on parents for money, and etc.
2. Grow closer to God.
3. Be a better person, love everyone and everything, even to those I might not get a long with very well. Be nicer to family, esp. my brother (I'm so mean to him!)
4. Build a stronger relationship with Perry and love him in every way.
5. Never take things for granted!
6. Do well in school and don't just breeze through my studies. Actually work for it because I know I'm smarter than I think.
7. Take care of myself, both mentally and physically (which means work out and exercise! ugh, I'm so lazy >.< )
8. Keep writing blogs and don't get too lazy. Remember, this is for you to just let everything out... kind of like an online diary :)
9. ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD, NEVER LOOK BACK IN THE PAST. DON'T STOP MOVING
FORWARD :D
Alright, that's all for my first blog of the year, 2010!
Love,
Michee
"Love can be seen by the blind and heard by the deaf"
Anyway, time for the New Year's Resolution! I have this feeling that 2010 is going to be a good year. I don't know why, I just feel it. I feel as if bonds between friends, families, and of course Perry will become stronger and unbreakable. It's a weird feeling, I know, but I'm going to trust it. Last year, on New Year's I had a feeling also that 2009 was going to amazing, and it certainly was! So I'm going with my instincts again this time :)
Now back to the New Year's Resolution:
1. Become a stronger individual, as I start to face the real life. No more depending on parents for money, and etc.
2. Grow closer to God.
3. Be a better person, love everyone and everything, even to those I might not get a long with very well. Be nicer to family, esp. my brother (I'm so mean to him!)
4. Build a stronger relationship with Perry and love him in every way.
5. Never take things for granted!
6. Do well in school and don't just breeze through my studies. Actually work for it because I know I'm smarter than I think.
7. Take care of myself, both mentally and physically (which means work out and exercise! ugh, I'm so lazy >.< )
8. Keep writing blogs and don't get too lazy. Remember, this is for you to just let everything out... kind of like an online diary :)
9. ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD, NEVER LOOK BACK IN THE PAST. DON'T STOP MOVING
FORWARD :D
Alright, that's all for my first blog of the year, 2010!
Love,
Michee
"Love can be seen by the blind and heard by the deaf"
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